Who am I?

Wow thats a question of ambiguity.

Who am I? Oh gosh who knows. but I surely can state the obvious.

I'm a girl. A girl who happens to have no job, and not in school right now.

It happens that right now I'm living my sisters life, staying with her and

helping take care of my four nephews and nieces, all under the age of 5.

Don't get me wrong I love them all to death, but if my sister didn't need me

so bad I would love to live my own life right now.

I just recently left Columbia College Chicago. For many reasons.

I miss that school so much. But i know it was necessary that I leave.

I met a lot of very great people through my time there and I will probably never forget

the time I spent there for the rest of my life.

I have an extreme anxiety disorder. I am always trembling, and constantly have that crawling out of my own skin feeling. It drives me crazy. It's like no matter what I'm doing I have this hopeless STUCK feeling. It's hard to explain but all I know is I constantly am stressed. I don't like not having control. I hate being so anxious all the time. I never sleep. Nobody understands how hard of disorder insomnia is. NONE of my family understands this disorder and thinks I have control over it. I hope one day they will figure it out.

With that said, I am also a very independent person. I decided when going to school, I would go somewhere I knew I didn't know many, so I could do it by myself. I loved that. I love relying on myself. Which is why no job sucks so bad. I hate having to be financially dependent on someone else. It sucks.

I am an EXTREMELY picky person when it comes to love. I don't love easily whatsoever. It takes a lot for me to be attracted to a guy. I am very old fashion and believe in friendship first and then the idea of courting. But i seem to get hurt a lot so ive kinda taken myself out of the game. When I do find someone I am falling for, I fall hard. It takes a lot for me to get over the person, but I dont necessarily do the clingy thing. I work it out in my own head. And i move on.

When I think back on my life i have noticed I have a very huge pattern of disappointments in my life, from any kind of relationship Ive had, to jobs, as far as having to leave the school I loved. It has made me a strong person, but deep down it kills me. Ive learned to NEVER get my hopes up in any situation and to just keep going.

I thrive on communication, I love listening to others as much as I love talking. I love hearing others' stories, and i love helping other people out. I have a huge heart and I am very observant which helps me see things others usually dont in a certain situation.

yah so ha thats just a base, but how can anyone really answer the question of who they are?